loosing my head

If any of you remember this post: http://thamarshall.blogspot.com/2009/01/power-of-music-and-emotion.html (sorry, link is busted), the feeling is still there. Music still shifts and shapes my mood. I still loose my head and thoughts in the same peaceful melodies. Taking me back to easy times, in the country, in the summer. But things have changed, altered and expanded.... Below is an account of a few musical selections, describing what I see when I close my eyes, whilst listening.

I find myself today sitting in a grey abyss, a cloud enveloping my head. Days like this make it easy to forget what it feels like to be warm. But then, I turn my head and look at it in a different way. I sit down and plug in to mr. ipod. Death Cab for Cutie starts up, and soon slow drifting tunes wiggle their way about my head. Closing my lids I am no longer in grayness, but in a world of movement. Nature. The wild. This is big. I am sitting on the coast of scotland. A dark filter is placed over the lens of man's eye, and everything seems full of emotion. The sky billows wispy covers above the frothy black waters. Jagged stone blocks the force of the water from my skin, still a mist of moisture finds its way up, collecting in droplets about my hair. A gentle breeze moves the wild growth around me, nature's lawn. That is death cab alright, good stuff.

Next up is probably my favorite. I change the playlist to one named after her. Soon my chest is chalk full of emotions. Happiness bubbles up and explodes in my mind like fireworks. On the third of july at real. The fiery explosions rock me backward as things change. We grow and adjust. Before I know it, I am trapped in a salt water room, with no desire to leave its exhilarating randomness. We are driving down the dark roads at night, no real destination in mind. The only thing that matters is that she is by my side. She is trying her best to distract me from my thoughts. I love it. I take a jump, then fall onto her couch. She lands beside me. Images flash in front of us and she giggles. I pull her close and close my eyes. Breathe. I have to. Otherwise the moment is gone and I discover that she is no longer by my side. Regretfully I hop in my car and drive to a place of learning. You belong with me! Suddenly the dreary school day is not quite the same. I remember you and me. My daydream shifts to last weekend. This weekend. She is so fearless!! Time to wake.
By now most of you are thoroughly confused, as am I. It is so difficult to describe the phenomenon of emotion and music. Especially in a dreamer like me!